As I stood in the back of the theater at church with Hillsong NYC, extremely disconnected to the worship as always, it hit me.
I thought, “Lord, I should be able to worship you regardless of where I am. If I’m waiting on my favorite worship song before I open my mouth and lift up my hands, something isn’t right.”
Is your relationship with Christ based on the church you attend? Are you more captivated by the worship leader’s vocal range and rifts than Jesus, Christ, the Son of God.
Can you worship God without the music, wherever you are or must you always be orchestrated into that secret place/dwelling of the Most High?
“I had to feed you with milk, not with solid food, because you weren’t ready for anything stronger. And you still aren’t ready,”
1 Corinthians 3:2 NLT
The enemy tries to lock in you in that place if stagnation. You become afraid of what more God might have for you. To some this may sound bizarre but I’m right there.
Yes God, I want more of you but.. not too much because I’m afraid of the long suffering it might bring.
I know you’ve brought me through the valley of the shadow of death and lion’s den untouched but Lord.. if I go deeper, will I be able to handle it?
My last season stretched me to capacity. Yes, I’m better than I was before.. but.. it was tough.
Can I handle more of your presence, more of your power and more of your anointing?
I mean, your Word says,
“When someone has been given much, much will be required in return; and when someone has been entrusted with much, even more will be required.”
(Luke 12:48b NLT)
Can I handle it or will I settle right where I am?
Can I worship you fully?
Can I trust that this is only the beginning but in order to be totally transformed I must seek your kingdom above all else.
I must seek YOUR..
Of course with some help along the way, but I. It starts with me.
Without the worship leader sometimes.
Without passively listening to sermons but by actively sitting and speaking to you while petitioning to hear from you – daily.
Help my heart.
In Jesus’ Name.
Will you allow God to stretch you a little bit more? He’s just getting started. Shame the devil and get into the word. Find your worship!
Disclaimer: (1) I love Hillsong and the today’s message at Church was spot on. Sometimes, I just get distracted by the worship because it’s not what I’m used to at my home church.