I Don’t Know How To Rest
Lord, teach me how to rest in You.
“It is useless for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night, anxiously working for food to eat; for God gives rest to his loved ones.”
– Psalms 127:2 NLT
I dug a bit deeper and realized not only is my lack of rest unbiblical, it also comes from a place of fear & anxiety. A deeper root cause that I need to watch and pray about. As far as I recall, it started (or took off) when Emmanuel died. It became, “omg, do everything now because who knows what tomorrow holds… will you even make tomorrow? Do it all now!”
Today, I asked myself, do you live to be accomplished or do you live to honor God?
It’s the “YOLO” mentality with a “heavenly” spin on it. Either way, it’s dangerous.
Even further, I realized (just as we’re told in Ecclesiastes) that it’s an endless/meaningless chase. And it’s not like this is new news.. I’ve just applied this knowledge/wisdom in more comfortable areas i.e. my educational and career goals. I’ve learned that those goals can become an endless chase however, as far as every other area of my life? #LEARNING.
I’ll never DO enough.
Constantly chasing what’s next is not only tiring, it’s extremely empty.
Part of it is fear, but the other part might simply be maturity (or a lack thereof/immaturity). Roots of impatience? Yup, check that out.
This is only the beginning of this reflection.
Lord, teach me how to rest.. in You.
Disclaimer: This isn’t an excuse to be lazy. We can talk more about that in another post. #Balance.
2 “Everything is meaningless,” says the Teacher, “completely meaningless!”
3 What do people get for all their hard work under the sun? 4 Generations come and generations go, but the earth never changes. 5 The sun rises and the sun sets, then hurries around to rise again. 6 The wind blows south, and then turns north. Around and around it goes, blowing in circles. 7 Rivers run into the sea, but the sea is never full. Then the water returns again to the rivers and flows out again to the sea. 8 Everything is wearisome beyond description. No matter how much we see, we are never satisfied. No matter how much we hear, we are not content.
9 History merely repeats itself. It has all been done before. Nothing under the sun is truly new. 10 Sometimes people say, “Here is something new!” But actually it is old; nothing is ever truly new. 11 We don’t remember what happened in the past, and in future generations, no one will remember what we are doing now.