My Fear Of Driving! #TransparentMoment
Today, I allowed God to be my deliverer, pilot & master and it felt really good. I’m so proud of myself. *pats self on back*
Ever since my 2nd or 3rd panic attack while driving, I became petrified behind the steering wheel. #TransparentMoment.
First, the fear of driving on the highway crept in and before I knew it, I was crippled and would avoid even driving down my block. Now, this is coming from someone who loved driving. Since I was 12 years-old, I begged my mom to let me park her car. I practiced in parking lots, got my license as soon as I could and was OUT and ABOUT.
Talk about a demobilizing fear…
Earlier this year, I tried to get back on the road. I panicked many times on the bridge. Stalled. Pulled over for nearly an hour because I was afraid to merge onto the highway. At that moment, I was far too embarrassed to turn back home because “I’m afraid to drive.” Who says that? It’s such an embarrassing fear.
It got so bad that I’d panic before entering a car. Panic while in the passenger’s seat. My toes would get cold out of anxiety. I’d think about potential trips day/weeks beforehand trying to get “my mind ready.” Some times, I’d push through out of desperation, but my wounds didn’t heal.
I decided that this summer, I’d face my fear head on.
It didn’t work. I couldn’t overcome by my own strength.
My friend, Osarena, forced me to drive. It worked in that moment, but fear attacked a week later.
God wanted to take all the glory He deserves.
Today, I decided to be obedient to God and pray about my fear.
Give your burdens to the LORD, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall. – Psalms 55:22
I prayed! I demanded that whatever chains were holding me should be broken. I prayed and God heard.
I felt as though He was just waiting for me to get on my knees and realize my need for Him.
It was one of those “I gotchu, Daughter” moments.
One thing I’ve learned through my constant battle with fear and anxiety (I will share more about my previous panic disorder later), you have to fight persistently.
I got on that highway today sis and I was literally cheesing. I am more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus. I gave my fear to God and He showed up!
I receive healing. Total and complete healing. This battle is not mine but the Lord’s.
I’m not sure what you’re struggling with or what phobia is holding you hostage, but I declare that you shall be released into freedom. You are free in Christ. YOU ARE FREE. Believe it. Receive it. Walk into it. It is YOURS.
God is greater that your demobilizing fear/phobia. So shine on and LIVE FREELY.
Pro tip: You might want to share your fear/phobia with a trusted friend/family member. Encouragement is crucial when overcoming fear & anxiety.
From henceforth let no man trouble me: for I bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus. – Galatians 6:17
Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand. – Isaiah 41:10
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. – John 10:10