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Fear of Progression/ Mini Testimony/ 2014 Reflection

I have this fear of: could it get any better than this? Is all gonna go down hill from here? This feels like the best, at least it has been the best.best_is_yet_to_come

But God, being the great God He is, proved me wrong.

Basically:

When it was time for me to graduate high school I was SO scared to move on because my high school experience was absolutely amazing. It was the best (at that point), and my question was: could college beat this?

I mean, I guess it’s a reasonable fear of the unknown.

However!! How EVAAA.. College son..
God really showed up and proved to me it only gets better. I can boldly say my first semester experience was point blank bomb, all the downs (barely any) were ups in disguise!! Like really amazing.

God placed me in this school because I trusted in Him and really listened and followed the path He set out for me.

So now.. I don’t even have the right to be hopeless.

But I’m human, so it crossed my mind again this morning: could life get better? 2014 was too good to be true, how could 2015 be any better? But BAM, my answer:

God allowed me to remember that 2014 started off shaky (it was a spill over of 2013), but that was just the devil trying to put me down so I wouldn’t see the dope year God was building me up for.

It started with MRI & MRA scans.

This time last year, I almost didn’t want to live to see another day. Anxiety, fear, pain, worry and near depression.

December 31st 2013, I had prayed for 2014 to be good to me, but it didn’t seem possible, even up until April 2014

What I didn’t realize was God REALLY had me all figured out, I just couldn’t trust and see past my circumstances. I didn’t expect anything good to come out of such a horrible period of life.

But God saw my heart. He knew enough was ENOUGH.

He knew my soul.

Like prince charming, he would come and sweep me of my dusty crusty feet! He wiped my tears!!

It got better.

So much better. Anxiety, fear, pain, worry and near depression turned into an OVERFLOW OF HAPPINESS.
as the year progressed.

An unfathomable kind of better.

It went from hopelessness to scholarships, healing, love, success, another internship, starting this blog, growth, travel, etc etc.

(Quick shout out to David and Bri❤️)

After all God has done for me?! I’m soooo hopeful and excited for 2015; stuck on the promise that He really has a plan for me. Not only that, a GOOD plan. Therefore, that only guarantees me, it’s going to get better. There’s no way out of it. It done! It is finished!!

So i’ll leave you all with this:

Even if you had a bad year (by your standards), TRUST that the best is yet to come. The devil may be trying to cloud that picture of possible goodness/greatness, but BELIEVE ME, it’s there. You may not see it now, but when you get there, and that picture becomes clearer, you’d be in your room balling crying because of how faithful God is, has been and will continue to be!

Our God isn’t one that would lie. He has PROMISED us certain things. He LOVES us (real love, 1 Corinthians 13 kinda love)!! Love is PATIENT. He was so patient with me, He waited on me through all my sin. He will be patient with you, so be patient with him. (Did I emphasize patience enough?)

Wow.

Stay strong. It only gets better.  ❤ ❤


Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. (Matthew 6:33)

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. (Romans 8:28)

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?” (Matthew 6:25)

For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭43‬:‭19‬ NLT)


Happy New Year!!! 



P.S.:  I’m taking January off to fast and pray for this blog.  This means I probably won’t post anything, but I will definitely be working on it so get ready.  This doesn’t mean leave! It means, stay and catch up!! Enjoy reading and re-reading my old posts.  Love ya and see you at the end of January xxx

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Merry Christmas!!!

Oh sweet Baby Jesus. Born in a manger and all the other exciting stuff.Merry-Christmas-Jesus-Banner-2

The most exciting part about today, Christmas, the celebration of His birth, is that God sent Him for US?!

Like really? US!!!

His chosen people.

Let us celebrate and give thanks!!

Put aside all the “extraness”. The expensive presents, the hype, all of that. And focus in on what’s really going on. We are celebrating the King of Kings. The PRINCE OF PEACE. The merciful and eternal God.

Imagine we lived in the days of the Old Testament?

Thank you Lord.

I never really valued Christmas as much as I do today solely because I didn’t fully understand what/who was being celebrated. And I believe that’s comprehensible.

This time last year was totally different for me but that’s why I am so thankful. It’s all making sense and I thank God for all His revelations, His INFINITE MERCY!!!!

You guys know I could go on and on.

Have a really blessed day. Give thanks!! Reflect. The year is coming to an end.  I pray God continues to reveal himself to you.

Lastly, remember, He came for US. Enough was ENOUGH. The battle has been WON. Victory is ours FOREVER. Nothing can separate us from a love so DEEP.

I hope you are blessed by the passages and song. See you later loves!

Comment below why you’re excited about Christmas and maybe share what God has done for you this past year.


For a child is born to us, a son is given to us. The government will rest on his shoulders. And he will be called: Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭9‬:‭6‬ NLT)

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved. (‭John‬ ‭3‬:‭16-17‬ NKJV)

May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. (‭Ephesians‬ ‭3‬:‭19‬ NLT)

But thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15:57 NLT)


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Nothing Can Separate Us From Gods Love

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This morning was tough for me.
I thought it was bigger than I could handle.
I couldn’t really pray that much, but that’s ok:


“And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what

the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will. (‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭26-27‬ NLT)”


I sat here listening to worship songs, fully worshiping God:

And all I could do was worship for an hour.

Then, I was led to Romans 8:18-39 (a friend posted a status on Facebook, I went to that verse then followed the footnotes to Romans 8)

These are a few specific verses that really met me where I was:

1) I was a bit overwhelmed by everything I am doing:


Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later. For all creation is waiting eagerly for that future day when God will reveal who his children really are. (‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭18-19‬ NLT)

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And having chosen them, he called them to come to him. And having called them, he gave them right standing with himself. And having given them right standing, he gave them his glory. (‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭28-30‬ NLT)


2) I felt separated from Gods love because I thought I wasn’t “doing enough for God“:


“Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death?

No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us. (‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭35, 37‬ NLT)”


I’m so thankful that He’s ever present in my times of need.
He really sorted me out!
I feel awesome and I’m blogging again.

I urge you never to give up or give in to feelings of defeat, shame or guilt.

Have a blessed day!!

“WHY ME?? WHY NOW??”

Basically,

There are a lot of good things happening in my life right now and I’m thankful.

I’ll share more details when it’s time to but for now; this is how I’ve been feeling.IMG_1783.JPG

I’ve been so confused as to “why me?”

I’ve been asking God; “why this sinner?”

I’ve been asking way too many unnecessary questions but God being the lover He is, has been answering every single one of them.

Last night, I almost went to bed without reading my Bible but God, oh my Lord, loves me so much and he nudged me to read it.

There is POWER in the Word of God so pick it uppppp!

Anyway, I opened my Bible and was flipping pages for a bit. Went to 1 Corinthians 13 to read over that, flipped past Matthew to check if I had finished that and I was just all over the place for a couple of minutes.

I finally ended up in Romans and God spoke ever so clearly to me as soon as I began to read. His Word says :


“Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory. (‭Romans‬ ‭5‬:‭2‬ NLT)”


Because of our faith…
Because of my faith…
Accept it, you’ve been faithful and now Christ has brought you to a place of UNDESERVED privilege.
So be happy about it.

I am forever grateful and thankful for these privileges and I finally understand why all these things are happening (to a certain extent)

Keep God first in all you do. Worship him in truth!! (Don’t just sing the songs; WORSHIP HIM)

So I got my answer, it’s time for me to stop asking why, continue serving and MOVE. Enjoy the blessings. It’s ok to be blessed.

………

For a bit more context read Romans 5:1-11!!

Here’s the link to a relevant worship song:

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I am beyond grateful

God I thank you.

Thank you so much.

I was all caught up trying to figure out if this is where you want me or what you want me to be doing.

I forgot that you put me here. Obviously it’s where you want me to be.

You placed me here.
Surrounded me with supportive and amazing people.
Continuously blessing me.
Always giving me pieces to the puzzle.

I thank you Lord God for everything.

Everyone.

Every moment.

You are awesome and I love you.

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Love is patient

God answers prayers

I asked to be shown what love is..

His word says:LOVE-14

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love. (‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭13‬:‭4-7, 13‬ NLT)”

I got it! But I never understood it.

So I prayed and cried out to the Lord “SHOW ME LOVE! WHAT IS LOVE?? LET ME UNDERSTAND!! GIVE ME THE WISDOM TO UNDERSTAND!! PLEASE LORD”

Let’s be real, I was looking for love.

I wanted a guy somewhere down the line to show me love and I didn’t want to miss it.

But God showed me that I shouldn’t depend on the love of another human being. So what He did was He enabled me to show love instead of waiting to receive it.

When my mom was sick in the hospital, both faith and love overtook me. I had no control over it! Literally NO control.

I didn’t know I could show that much love and be comfortable showing it, but I did.

God knew I’d have a better understanding of love by giving it rather than waiting on a husband.

God moved me because I asked.

His word clearly says knock and the door will be opened unto you, ask and you will be answered!

God answers prayers and He has never failed to answer mine.

Morals of the story:

Don’t wait to be shown love to understand it, Instead pray to show love, and share the love of God.

Ask, Ask and Ask! Yes, he knows your heart but yes, he wants to hear you ask.

Don’t wait on guys (or guys don’t wait on girls) to show you love before you start showing love to others.

Let us love because He loves youuuu.

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